Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Chemo #6


When I started chemo and herceptin my doctor wanted me to get six rounds in. I am thankful that my body could do it! I am physically and emotionally tired and worn-out, but if more chemo is needed I know I could do it. However, I won't like it (nor do I think I have to)!

I spent this past Friday-Monday up in Edmonton for another round of tests (CT, Bone scan, and MUGA scan). I will get the results on June 4th. Then I will find out if I need more of the same chemo, a new type of chemo, or a totally different type of treatment (hormone therapy...).


My sister Tara has taken up photography and I was her first subject. Canada's Next Top Model won't be scouting me out, but she did a great job in making my 'hairless' shots original. Although I am okay with not having hair, I am really ready to have it grow back. The odd time it is hard to look in the mirror and see this sick person looking back. Although I recognize her, I don't always know who is looking back. I will never be the same Brenda I was prior to cancer and I am not quite sure who the new Brenda is either. I was reading an article in Success Magazine about Lance Armstrong and he was sharing that after cancer treatment when I he got on his bike it felt really foreign to him, and he didn't really know what he was supposed to 'do'. That's me. Right now I am just trying to be still and know that he is God and that he has a great plan for my life.

2 comments:

E. Tyler Rowan said...

Brenda, you are stunningly beautiful, hair or not! Still praying...

April said...

Thank you so much Brenda for keeping us updated. Thank you for giving us a glimpse of not only your outer beauty, but of the work that God is doing in your inner beauty. You truly are a blessing to each one of us. Although we are not the one facing this road we long to walk with you through it. We ache to somehow be part of this journey with you, even to have the ability to somehow make a difference in this battle you face. So many times we hear ourselves say, "well all I can do is pray." You remind me that our prayers are being heard by our Heavenly Father and they are in fact not just "all we can do", but instead what we are required to do... Uphold you in unending prayer. I love you sister! I too, continue to pray!